#i'll reblog the post where i talk about the idea since it has been awhile

[emily-mooon]

Jancy College Radio AU

Hey remember that fic idea I posted almost two months ago? well here's a moodboard for it!

The want to write for it has come back so I'm going to try and do a rewrite of my ideas tonight since I plan on making the fic shorter than it was originally planned.

Hope you are all doing well!

[littletealseal]

Hey everyone, I kinda dropped off again didn't I? Yeah I'm really sorry about that.. I'm realizing I tend to go through different phases of doing certain things and forget to let others know >>;;

Well I'm hopefully gonna try getting back into things or at least get through my huge backlog of reblog going things for my queue. I've been talking a lot with family and my gf on my regression and I think we're making a good breakthrough on me being more comfortable on using my gear around them all <:3 since before... stuff that I won't get into happened awhile back that made me not use my stuff as much as I wanted too. But! That's in the past and I want to try getting back into using my gear again ^^

I'm going to update now where I've been, mental stuff ofc always is an issue but not everything has been bad! My gf and I have been playing through every single mainline Pokémon game! So far we're now playing through PKMN colosseum and we're both having a blast playing through it c: I diiiiid try to shiny hunt the Dunsparce but learned to try to do it later ^^; plus my old GameCube started acting up.. so that was scary. I took it apart and gave it new thermal pads and cleaned it, that was very easy! Turns out it was my old controller causing the problems <XD well at least I refreshed my old GC c:

We completed the remake of Paper Mario The Thousand Year Door and LOVED IT SO MUCH 💙 I seriously forgot how much I love Paper Mario as a whole and DOOPLISS OMG DOOPLISS 💙💙💙 I used to love him a lot as a young teen and maaaaan he was wonderful in this remake!! His lil voice was perfect for how precious he is 🥹 He is literally so baby... ofc I say this without referring to anything agere related buuuuut then my baby brain got to working and I'm regressing with him now lmao. I always saw him being young mentally, like around 15 while his bio age is a mystery ( idk how Dooplighosts age ) and since he partners up with Flurrie in the end I see after a few years of being acting partners and them bonding, I see Flurrie being a mother like figure for Doopliss, and being a semi cg to him when regressed c: I'll talk more about this in another post

I'm going to try drawing again and get back into that small series I started where I draw all the cookies I see as regressors, as well as get to alot of other ideas I have. Other than that I'm mostly doing alright? Just trying to get by each day but thankfully my wonderful girlfriend and mom have been helping me a lot <:3

Hopefully soon things can change here and become active again.. but until then I'll hope to see you guys again later c:

Thank you for reading

[captainderyn]

31, 40, 48, and 50 as an optional bonus from the OC asks

Thank you for the asks <3

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31. Pick one OC of yours and explain waht their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything)

I'm trying to think which of my idiots would be the most tumblr-bound lol out of my current OCs. V would run a helluva shitpost blog. Like you know the Heritage Post level shitposts? That is absolutely something she would be fantastic at. But she'd constantly be night blogging: "V, why are you posting at 3:43am?" "Don't worry about it".

Era, on a completely different note, if she was given the time would have a beautifully formatted, gorgeously aesthetic blog showcasing her paintings, her painting set up, scenes around Dromund Kaas (especially the floral gardens) with everything carefully curated. Theme? Moody pastels. Photosets? Color coordinated.

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

I have SO many fond memories linked to my characters, especially ones I've made since joining tumblr back in...*checks notes* 2016ish as I've really built myself a fantastic community of mutuals that are so supportive, have engaged me with my characters all the more, and created some truly stunning joint worlds. I'll highlight a few that I've stumbled back across while digging through tumblr (though its absolutely NOT an all encompassing list):

The entire Fictober 2019, where I wrote Moments in Time will forever be special to me; it was my first attempt at fictober and the outpouring of love and support and excitement to follow ficlets of Wulfwryn and Raenor (who were NEW) was so inspiring and as we've seen they've become some of my most written characters <3

Emeldir's Traffic Cone Jacket Saga aka the series of in game shenanigans, fics, and prompts that @greyias and I clowned about a few years ago but keep resurfacing every once in awhile :P

Co-writing fics and writing duo fics with mutuals, especially the Idan and Terrance Odessen Reunion that @lumielles and I wrote pair fics for. There's something so beautiful about writing together with friends.

The enabling you all do >:D the Dream Team of Five, Roslynd, and Rhys wouldn't exist if @tiredassmage hadn't encouraged my tomfoolery with pulling Five off the shelf and breathing new life into a character I didn't think I'd feel inspiration for again and that truly is the story with so many of my characters. They wouldn't exist without y'all! Not in the way they currently do.

48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure?

Its a pretty solid toss up between Raenor and Tucdela. Hmmm...nah, I'll go with Tucdela because Raenor has his super saucy side which while that DOESNT mean he isn't the most perfect, cinnamon roll, it does mean he's a little less "pure" :P

50. Give me the good ol' OC talk here. Talk about anything you want.

Terrance has been on my mind a lot lately (hence the stumbling back on the fics) and I really really need to talk more about him because not only is his and Idan's dynamic fantastic, but I actually really popped off with him when I created him. The idea of a miraluka who struggles really really hard with using the Force to "see" as he gets overwhelmed extremely easily, especially on high population planets (like Coruscant) or highly Force attuned planets (Tython, Odessen) is something I want to explore more. That, and I need to write more JediSon and JediDad because Idan really comes through and extends a kind hand to a young kid who has not been shown that. The simple things like a cup of tea, or some spare soft fabric for his eye covering. I need an excuse to go wild over Terrance lol

[ask-modern-demon]

// Yo, so...long time no see huh? As you can tell by the format of this post, this is going to be another vent post type of deal. I feel bad that it's not something like "Yo! Guess who's back to rping with my inky modern boi again?!" but my spark to rp Modern has kind of just been...as dead and dormant as it's ever been, I apologize about that. I'm kind of just making this post for the sake of the fact that I kind of just want to write out these feelings I've had for quite awhile (a few months actually) that I've just never wrote out till now.

I was going to write out how I've been feeling since the last vent post I've made but decided against it as I was just like 'there's probably no point in speaking on it and yada yada yada" So I'm just gonna write it all out here so it can...maybe lift a lot of it off my shoulders? I don't know.

So, I've been on Tumblr for quite a long time, since 2014 to be exact. My first blog was kind of just a blog where a young me just liked and reblogged a bunch of random shit, nothing too spectacular. I then started getting into rping a bit after though, I was pretty shit at it at first but that was what helped me grow to be as good at writing as I am now (If I can even consider my rps up to this point 'good writing' lol)

After my first blog, I soon went on to create two more blogs, @ask-funfred-and-bon-blog/@ask-funtimefred-and-bon-blog and this blog that became the origins of my modern inky boi. I made a few more rp blogs after these but I feel like these two were the ones I enjoyed writing for the most and probably had the biggest impact on me.

Through these blogs, I had made a good amount of friends on here, I was never the real friend magnet irl so to have friends who enjoyed to have me around just as much as I enjoyed their own presence (even though we all lived miles away from each other) really made me happy. I had even made a whole Discord server just for me and a ton of my other Tumblr buds to just hang out.

However, irl shit started to catch up with me and it flipped my mental health into a loop. I never spoke about these specific things with them as I kind of had this mindset of: "Oh! They probably have a ton of shit they're going through too! Shouldn't burden them with my troubles! I'll just wait things out and things should work through!"

However, that was quite the opposite and it didn't really get no better, and due to these troubles my own spark for rping began to dwindle little by little, I even got this weird ass idea where I was like "I'm gonna make this really awesome storyline that brings every character from my blogs together and I'll end it off with a really awesome ending and then quit rping for good!" Which, news flash, it was shit, don't even try to look for it, I think I even deleted it due to how bad and cringe it was. Think that's just one of those moments where you look back at something you made and think...Damn, what was I thinking when I made this?

Eventually, things became too much and I kind of just...vanished from Tumblr. I deleted my old Discord that I had created so any contact I had with my old Tumblr friends had vanished and I just overall stopped posting. At that point I was like, this is it, I'll never touch this site again, I'm done rping for good.

After that, I kind of just went on with my life until a few years down the line I had felt that spark for rping chime back in me once again. I had made maybe like...one or two new blogs for characters I was interested in rping with and even came back here to write for Modern again. However, the spark soon faded out once more, and it was just a constant cycle of write and don't write and write and don't write.

There then became a point where I'd find myself looking back at old threads I'd wrote with some of my old Tumblr buds, people who I had long stopped talking to at that point since by the time I returned they had either deactivated by then or just left their blog to rot and moved on to another, some were even still active but it had been so long that I'm not even sure they would want to speak to me after so long.

I started to just be like...damn, if I had just talked about my issues back then, I would still have those people in my friend group, I wouldn't feel as alone as I've been feeling, I missed the way things used to be way back then, sometimes I wonder if that's a stupid thing to think.

A good chunk of these friends I had managed to get back in touch with due to me making another Discord, but not only was I too scared to just...send a message when I had them friended, but the friends I managed to have a convo with...didn't really seem too interested in talking to me (Which isn't their fault at all, they aren't obligated to talk to me as that would just make me feel bad ^^'')

And now I'm here...writing this whole thing out because I'm kind of just tired of thinking and feeling these things when I come back here so I just want to write them all out and be done with it.

If you read all the way to the end, you really didn't have to ^^'' but I appreciate it nonetheless. I hope you have a wonderful and blessed day and yeah...Yen signing out!

[minerwarfare-suzuya]

I feel like this announced post that's been in the works hasn't come out on time as I wanted since the drama has been updated involving Mobox87's second account being exposed on Twitter today.

I just want to state that I don't fully agree with the current callout post that the @/moboxcritique and @/zombifykid made involving Mobox87's new comic based off Vivziepop's Hazbin Hotel spin-off series, 'Helluva Boss'.

I've made my statement already in my reblog on the recent moboxcritique post. Mobox87 only changed her publicity and have an audience mainly focus for adults and mature teens which is a good thing for how she wants present herself and content but she hasn't changed her ego behind her publicity with some friends she backstabbed like Kevonica.

I know that I have made some crazy and offensive comments with my criticism by mocking Mobox87's past illustration ideas she projected to minors.

But I think this is where I step my foot down against the critics on what they have to say about this new comic since Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss is meant for a mature audience. It's humour and story telling talks about taboos involving drug addiction, sexual activity, domestic violence, abuse and touches on offensive comments.

I said this already and that I made comparison that the comic Mobox87 made involving her trans oc dealing with abuse is similar to Vivziepop's character Angel Dust suffering abuse with the pimp Valentino.

There is story telling in this comic and it shows Mobox87's improvement in using her controversial elements that didn't work in her previous work since before she over used them or didn't know where to go with it.

I know that this comic is very sensitive on showing off too much but again I said this on the reblog and she put a warning about this comic to ONLY change her online publicity and target an adult audience to read the story.

Like I get it that rape is very terrible experience especially if you're a victim but it's not used as a fetish in story telling especially this comic.

I don't know how or what better way to explain it but using controversial or sensitive topics can be used in storying telling.

Berserk for example, it's a dark fantasy manga/anime and it has sensitive topics but it's no way made as fetish or fan service.

The primary purpose is trauma being part of the character development. I know Mobox87 has a history posting bad development for characters who she wanted to play as a victim in the story but this new comic has a formula that follows Vivziepop's work ideas on making a dark story but more grittier.

Now that this drama risen back up, we got this posted on her Facebook about how she's been practically abandoned due to the controversy and claims to be feeling miserable. I don't really care about the whole victimization thing she does when she posts about how she's at her lowest since it's always bait but still I think the critics took this comic too seriously. I won't deny that she did misinform people online about the drama she's in but that's something she still needs to confront again eventually.

Anyways, I just wanted to say what I feel came off as wrong or overreacting with this new callout on her new comic to get away from her other fan made work that got her into trouble.

I might be overlooking this callout post made by the critics on this new post drama.

If I get any hate for this cause I feel that the critics I'm close with are wrong this time around. Then fuck it, I'll go solo with my rants and do my own thing as usual.

[brutal-out-here]

.*｡✫*My One Year✫*ﾟ･

yes I did put this off till the last second, I almost forgot oops lol

I've been on this place for a year now....OMG!! How has it been a year already? But it feels like I have been on longer then that at the same time? It's hard to explain.

I've my highs and lows on this app but it probably is one of my favorites due to some of the people on here.

I literally have a post with over 1,000 notes on it!! Its crazy to think that. I made it in like 2 minutes. I have no idea how that even happened.

I have nearly 800 followers which is the absolute craziest thing to me. Like almost 800 people went "Oh wow I really like their stuff" or "Aye they seem nice" or just simply just hit follow just because. It just amazes me.

And o receive messages and/or other notifications many times of day. Which is absolutely insane as well. To anyone who's ever messaged or liked my post or my reblog or whatever I thank you so much, it truly does mean alot.

I remember joining Tumblr after my friends suggesting it over and over again and plus being able to be on a place with Taylor. I was a no body for awhile. But in the last 2 months or so I think I've actually became, not tumblr famous, but like noticed by people.

Like I've finally found a place where there is actual people wanting to talk to me, let alone ones that actually stick around. Not too many people can stand my random thoughts at random moments lol. Though I still thank those who have tried to talk to me then go away because I wasn't what they thought or something. You still made the effort lol

Just in the last year I've made so many friends, some being just mutuals I dont talk to but they know who I am.

I've grow closer to my 1st internet friend Sara aka @gorgeous-irwin . She isn't on here much anymore though. But I still talk to her on Wattpad.

@zetsuboukiibo and it won't let me tag so I guess I'll just put a link you guys are literally my best friends since forever. As a token for actually standing me in real life(lol) is that I'll just type "YEET" (I'm going to regret that lol)

@what-now-lucas we haven't talked long but you really are a friend. You're really nice which is amazing. Ur amazing. I wish could talk more but apparently we're in totally different timezones and timezones suck lol

And last but the last from least The @rip-lukes-balsamic . We've only been talking for 3 months but ur one of my best friends. Ur usages of memes and reaction pics are superior. Plus you have an amazing personality and I absolutely love it.

And there's so so many other people but I have a bad memory and forget URLs plus it'll take too long to type them all out. But really, to anyone who's nicely interacted with me I thank you so so much. You put up with a that goes from talking about Taylor Swift to diving deem into band fandoms lol.

This place has been one of my main happy places in the last year. I've learned and grown as a person after being on here just only in a year. Cant wait to see what the future has in store.

But for now enjoy a screenshot from the day I got tumblr lol:

Omg it looks so bad lol

Bye♥️x